What it is I worry.
I worry that he won’t believe in my dreams. 😔😔😔😔 Won’t think they’re plausible. Feasible. Whatever…😑😒
Big🐗Bear🌵🌟 is all about the financial precision. Those “hoops” he jumps through are the metaphorical hoops of businessmen. The people who actually get shit done, everything is in talk of numbers. 🤔🤔🤔🤑🤑 The small magic of the world I believe in, what makes me kooky 🌚🌞🔮🏺 I don’t believe Big🐗Bear🌵🌟 finds rationality in it. What use is that trait to him? I told him today that I am all those things that he isn’t.
I feel that all qualities he hasn’t, he doesn’t mind because they aren’t crucial or necessary in a game of life. That’s not the tools that make you win. ⌛️⌛️🏆🏆
That’s my take on it.
That’s what I think he means by “jumping through the hoops of life.” He’s cutthroat. To the point. I am not that way. If I have a point to get across, most times yes, I’m to the point. ☝🏼️☝🏼But on a larger scale, my approach on life doesn’t have that soldierly structure like his. He’s a man. And he’s good at being one. 🙌🏼🙌🏼💪🏼💪🏼👌🏼👌🏼
He has a tendency to lecture. To give authoritative instruction, whether intended for wisdom or advice. He’s bossy. I suppose I am as well, but I doubt I’ve ever made him feel like he should question his whole life approach, and maybe he should. I feel as if he would think my life is a silly amateur facade that’s sure to not make any real such uprising. 😔😔 I don’t want to be insecure, and I know that’s a lie because I know I’ll make it. I may not know how to exactly answer your questions on my dreams or plan on life, but I haven’t done anything but become better. Do better. I am not organized like he is, my thought processes aren’t as fine tuned as his are on money and that road to success.
Don’t get me wrong I have a plan, things I will see accomplished, but I suppose I’m not comfortable enough to share those with him, to brainstorm. 🤔🤔 suppose I feel judged. Whether he is or isn’t, those eyes are constantly measuring 📐📐📏I don’t want to one day be scolded, like so often his friends. 😡😡👁👁👁☝🏼️☝🏼but like do I need to be????? No. I’m Rina P. 👊🏼
I only worry… I worry he’s not going to like me in the long run.😔😔😔 Those artsy “fun and games” aren’t what successful sensible people do. That I’m too kooky. 😕😕 I am a goofy woman, destined to be a goofy OLD woman. 👵🏽👵🏽👵🏽👵🏽👵🏽 I won’t ever be different. Does he want that in his life? The woman who can reasonably see the magic in everything? The imagination that spurs the accumulation of wands, books, and art? I told him that his family must have a soft spot for artists, 🎨🎭🎻🎬 he will be the second one I know for sure has a desire for one…. He must like me. I know he does…. I’ve seen that too in his eyes. 👁👁😍 Curious it was for 🐗Tom🌵🌟 to ask if I was happy with him.
Maybe I think too much. I want to be happy. I want to be the light in someone’s life. I want to be that woman who is the escape to his numbers, hustle & bustle.⌚️📱📞📞📞⛽️⛽️💲 I want to be his exotic life. 🌷🌷 His love life. ❤️❤️ His exciting life. His absolutely amazing life. ⛱🗽🕌 I want to be part of the magic in it. 🔮🔮🔮🔮🔮☁️☁️ I want him in MY life. 😌😌😊😊😊😚😚😚
I want to show him the benefits to being only yourself. Empowered by your spirit. 🐾🐾🐻🦁Because life is about that. Its about the beauty this world has to offer us. 🌎🌍🌏It’s about the love you can share with someone as a partnership that’s nothing more than a solid devoted team. 👋🏼👋🏼👥👥 I want to take some pages from his book 📕and him from mine 📓 I want him to know that to me life isn’t a hoop, it’s a ride.
🎢🎢🚀🚀It’s a vision. We could have a wild and beautiful life if that’s what we decided, we could do some damage. ⛵️⛵️🏞⛺️🌃🎆⛰🗻🌋🌌 🏄🏼🎣🎿🎿🎪🎷🎳🎰🎟 I would give my all to my partner. I would take the advice he gave me as constructive. 🛠🛠🔩🔩 I would make myself a better person by learning from him. I want him to take me under his wing as my Big🐗Bear🌵🌟. He does make me feel safe. 🛡⚔ No one will hurt his girl, in any way if he can help it. 😏😏😊 I want us to have the same goal as a team. Believe in me baby because I no doubt believe in you. Now that I think about it, I’m just worried… I am afraid.
Yes… He makes me happy.
I am happy with you 🐗Big🌵Bear🌟.