Entry 14: That Bitch Always Has Your Back

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How stupid do you feel?

How tragically dumb. Obviously a phone call is a waste of time. Obviously the “regular” isn’t a regular protocol anymore. Once again you’re that person on your own and once again you have another “friend” to tack onto the list. (😉😉 👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽good job!!!!! 😒😒😒😒)

Friends, friends, friends. Don’t you love them? People who always have your back, always smile when you talk to them. I suppose that’s something to be grateful for. Of course. You should ALWAYS be grateful. 😐😐

But why does it suck though? Why were your hopes for more than a friend?

Answer: Because that’s what you wanted, that’s what you had, and that’s what you don’t have anymore.

😞😞 It’s heartbreaking I know. When a person says ehh. Not worth it. 😑 Too complicated. Is it you that’s that way? You’re the one making it “complicated”? Do you know? Maybe I’m too complicated for people. Maybe that’s a good thing. Maybe it’s a good thing you scare off so many prospects because only the most suitable match will be able to handle. Your “complicated” and intricate requirements weed out the would-be warriors.

You don’t deserve to feel the emptiness from the words people speak to you. The pathetic force that results in a meek effort to continue conversation. You feel it, and it’s insulting. It makes you feel like you’re the loser. You’re the one who just isn’t understanding that uhhh, sorry but shit just isn’t the same anymore…

How depressing. I’m that girl. Doesn’t that piss you off? Doesn’t that make you want to be a fucking recluse and not grace anyone with your presence ever again? Most people aren’t extraordinary enough. So it’s a lonely road being extraordinary. Maybe you’re supposed to be alone. Maybe you do your best when you don’t have a partner. Maybe when you get a partner you slack, maybe you aren’t as efficient. There’s nothing efficient about putting someone else before yourself. Besides the obvious case with your child, stop doing it.

Stop doing it to yourself. You’ve always been 100% wrong about men and still that statistic stands, but maybe it’s time to reword that statistic. Maybe 100% of the time men aren’t up to the task. Well, that’s obviously too harsh and a fallacy, make it 99%. 😉😄😄

Here’s your new saying as of now: 99% of the time men aren’t equipped for the extraordinary.

You do your best art alone. You accomplish the best grades, alone. You have a lot of your best times, alone. The most rewarding experiences you have, the only person in attendance was yourself. Give yourself some credit for that. The graph dips in times of disappointment more while you are Rina +1. Rina = 1 always has less disappointment, because you can always expect a good thought from her, a well written piece that gives you a pat on the back, she’s always the one psyching you out of being afraid, or lonely, or sad, or mad for that matter.

That bitch always has your back because that’s what Rina P does. She’s there for you through and through. She’s putting her hand up and stopping the sadness ☝🏽️☝🏽✋🏽✋🏽✋🏽✋🏽she’s using her other hand to wipe your tears. 😿😿👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽Rina P is your +1. She’s the extraordinary one who’s gonna push you through this. She’s the 1% that’s appropriately equipped for a woman like you.

Don’t listen to that guy. Heed his advice. Listen to Rina.

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